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Elfrieda’s Rachmaninoff performance before the church elders

All My Puny Sorrows

Elfrieda Von Riesen’s Rachmaninoff performance before the church elders turns a visit intended to enforce community expectations into a defining scene of artistic independence. As the elders discuss whether she should pursue university music studies, Elfrieda plays from the spare bedroom next to the front door; the men fall silent, and the performance ends with their departure. Yolandi Von Riesen remembers the music as the moment Elfrieda took control of her life, while also admitting that she never learned whether her sister knew the elders were listening.

Background and Stakes

Shortly after Elfrieda had gone around town with red paint, the bishop arrived at the family home with a group of elders. He called such encounters visits or fence-mending, but Yolandi recalls their arrival as an intimidating show of authority: the men came in separate black cars and entered the house together. The bishop had already reprimanded Lottie over the shape of her wedding dress. On this occasion, their concern was Elfrieda’s plan to study music at university. She was only fifteen, and the community’s authorities had heard that she wanted to leave East Village. They treated higher education, particularly for girls, with suspicion.

The visit exposed a divide within the household as well as between the family and the elders. Jake Von Riesen let the men into the living room and stood among them while they discussed Elfrieda’s future. Lottie stayed in the kitchen, deliberately refusing the customary role of welcoming the visitors with refreshments and hospitality. She had urged Jake to tell the elders their visit was unwelcome, but he could not bring himself to do so; she had agreed not to confront them directly, while also refusing to wait on them. Yolandi sat beside her father, then joined her mother in the kitchen, where the two listened to the discussion from the next room.

The Piano in the House

The instrument at the center of the confrontation was itself a breach of local rules. Pianos were not permitted in East Village, where they were associated with worldly entertainment. Elfrieda’s parents had nevertheless brought one into their home after a city doctor recommended a creative outlet for her. For years, they hid it beneath sheets and gunny sacks when the elders visited. Eventually the authorities discovered it, and the family faced discussion of a possible period of excommunication for Jake. He offered to accept punishment, but the elders relented on the condition that the piano be used only as an instrument for the Lord. In time, Elfrieda’s parents came to love her playing and occasionally requested familiar songs.

By the time of the visit, Elfrieda had studied Rachmaninoff’s Prelude in G Minor, Op. 23 for two years. A teacher from the conservatory in Winnipeg drove to the house twice each week to give her lessons. The family knew the piece closely, and Elfrieda had described its shifting emotional character to them. In Yolandi’s recollection, the piano was not simply a forbidden object or a lesson in obedience: it was where much of Elfrieda’s life took place, and the performance made audible an inner world the elders’ discussion could not contain.

The Performance and Its Immediate Effect

While the elders spoke in the living room, Elfrieda began the prelude in the spare bedroom near the front door. The conversation stopped. She played the piece at changing volumes, growing louder and then quieter before building again. Lottie began to hum and sway in the kitchen; Yolandi remained with her. The scene sets the elders’ formal discussion against Elfrieda’s music: their words concern whether she may pursue a future beyond the community, while her playing occupies the house and holds the family’s attention.

The prelude came to an end, the piano lid closed, and the bench scraped across the floor. Elfrieda entered the kitchen, drank the remaining apple juice from the jug, threw the empty container away, and celebrated having mastered the piece. The elders filed out in the order in which they had arrived. The front door closed, their cars started, and the group departed. Jake did not join his family in the kitchen; he had gone to his study. The account does not establish that Elfrieda timed the performance to answer the elders. Yolandi explicitly leaves open whether her sister knew they were in the living room or whether the timing was coincidental.

Consequences and Significance

Despite that uncertainty about intention, Yolandi gives the performance a clear consequence. She remembers it as Elfrieda’s debut as an adult woman and, in retrospect, as an early sign of the world-class pianist she would become. The music does not settle the dispute by winning the elders’ approval. Instead, it makes the limits of their authority newly visible: Yolandi imagines that the men understood Elfrieda could not remain in the community after expressing such forceful passion. The scene marks her departure from the family’s expected life, even though she is still physically at home.

For Jake, Yolandi says, the moment meant losing the elders’ approval, his authority as head of the household, and his daughter, who was now free and therefore dangerous. The performance thus changes the meaning of the piano’s earlier compromises. An instrument first smuggled into the house as a doctor’s proposed outlet, and later permitted only under religious conditions, becomes the means through which Elfrieda’s independence is made unmistakable. The visit ends without a public argument or an explicit decision; the elders leave, and the family is left to reckon with what has shifted.

The memory also sits within a family history of migration, violence, and silence. Yolandi recalls that her grandparents came from a Mennonite village in Siberia in 1917, during the Bolshevik Revolution. Her grandfather survived the violence that killed his parents and was eventually sent to Canada. Plautdietsch, the language associated with the family’s inherited shame, carried a history in which people learned to endure suffering without speaking of it. Lottie later learned that suffering can pass between generations. Against that inheritance, Elfrieda’s performance is significant not only as a challenge to local restrictions on music and women’s education, but as a moment when an inward life becomes publicly present in the family home.

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